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Diagnosis v Determination

It’ll be almost three years since I had my first MRI to find out why I was in such agony with my back and why it felt like I had a jagged steel rid shoved inside my leg! Turns out, I had a large, ruptured prolapse and it required surgery…So, in 2014 I had my first Discotomy and because I never do anything by halves, I had to have an emergency MRI and not only had the right side ruptured, but the left decided it wanted in on the action too!

HOWEVER…I refused to let it stop me, I pushed onwards, got back to some semblance of normality and carried on with life. I returned to writing and set up a Wattpad account and began publishing my work for all to see and (scarily) to judge. Luckily, I wasn’t found wanting, many readers enjoyed my stories and I thought, hey, maybe I can make this work after all. Onwards and upwards, I began my first novella, Vastian Lore, just to test the self-publishing waters!

THEN, in the beginning of 2016 I began to have some very familiar symptoms and low and behold, I had another ruptured prolapse on the right side, in exactly the same place as before. The logical conclusion that moving house, decorating and shifting furniture (which I shouldn’t have done) caused my back to konk out again.

In May 2016, I had another Discotomy, which wasn’t as successful as the first and I’ve been told by the specialist that I will always suffer pain because the more operations you have, the less successful they are. The sciatic symtoms subsided, but I was left with a constant nagging pain in my right calf, due to the aggrivation of the nerve and muscle.

I struggled onwards…Before my operation I gained a Diploma in Editing and Proofreading and published Vastian Lore, which I have also re-edited since then.

I don’t normally discuss my health as I am a writer, first and foremost, but I do think it is important to show that despite life’s struggles and setbacks, it is possible to get back on track and to do something you really love.

And since, my Fibromyalgia diagnosis, I have fought against low ebbs in my mood and a dispondant attitude to writing and well, life in general, BUT I keep going, I ask for help if I need it and I have a lot of support from my husband, kids and immediate family.

I’m very lucky!

I can’t look at my bad health as a tether that holds me back, instead I see it as a way to do what I really love…To write and create!

What I really want from this post is let people see that no matter the odds, dreams can be accomplished, with grit, determination and a wide streak of stubborn refusal.

I’ll never give up 😉

Thanks all for taking the time to read this.

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