There are days aplenty when i just can’t build up the stamina to sit in front of the computer and get past that blinking cursor, mocking my efforts, as if to say, you’ll never get there, you know, you’ll never finish this book, it’ll never get published, who’re you kidding?
And as I’ve mentioned before, I’ve got rejections slips, returned manuscripts, and all that…But after about a half dozen attempts, and after careful consideration, I realized, this just isn’t working. Not only that, but my cover letter was just too clinical and way too bland!
I’ve read a recent blog and there was a comment about the blogger having to come out their shell more, sometimers I’m so tightly packed into mine I can’t see the light for the darkness that is my own self-doubt. It isn’t from lack of support, but rather a lack of enthuisasm for when i get really excited about a scene, conversation, a character, even a sentence, I’m usually met with a blank expression because the people around me, who want to give me the chance to do this, don’t realise how caught up I get in my work, how entangled I become in a story, and sometimes it can be a real letdown not having anyone who can share in that joy of reading a book and laughing when a character makes a joke, or getting a lump in their throat when someone dies in a story you’ve emmersed yourself so deeply in you can’t help but feel…
This is what I want, and am trying, to accomplish. I write stories I would like to read. Hopefully, I’m developing the kinds of characters readers with either love or hate, dpending on who they are within the story, and that readers will finish one book and be eager to go grab the next, all for the love of the story and the people living within those pages.
It’s about knowing I’ve done something I really wanted to do, that others enjoyed the books I’m currently writing and the one’s I’ll hopefully write in the future, as much as I did creating them…
At the moment, it’s all about getting my novel finished, but in the interim I’m honing my skills doing short stories on Wattpad and this blog, to develop my writing, get a little feedback, and helping flesh out some of the characters from my main project.
It’s not always easy. I don’t always have a lot of free time, what with kids, dogs and cats, my veg patch, and all the other stuff that tags along behind a busy family, but i do try and get a little writing done everyday, even if it’s just a few sentences, a paragraph or 6hrs, all of it helps get the story finished, which is my first goal of many along the road to publishing.